I am so confused. I do not even know if I love anything or anyone. I am afraid of my sexual orientation or what I even identify as. It is like I want to scream but the sound will not escape from my lips. I just want to curl up and rip my hair out. I have questioned myself in the past but I always try to avoid the answer in the end and I just run away. I do not even want to acknowledge myself or the answer. I am at a loss for words...