Ok, right now I don't know how to act.

You see, my mother has been a doctor for over 30 years and have taking care of me, my brothers and our family in our time of need. She is one of the most prepared Doctors in our town (there wans't a year she didn't go to a congress or do a diploma and has like 3 or 4 Master degrees) and had been one of the steadiest hands I had ever known.

But right now she is hurting herself. She had Salmonellosis, a very strong one and not only she didn't want any doctor to see her (she is in comunication with What's app with one of her own friends from the clinic) but she had been asking and eating the very things she told me she couldn't eat, which was Milk, Cheese, Coffe and yogurt. She literally ate all of that not only two hours ago and she feel terrible. She also says she is insane of being copped in the house and is about a step into just taking the car and going out (I so hope it was a joke), for which we are going to take her to the theater tomorrow. She feels fine in the morning and think she is fine already even when she knows it takes between two and four weeks and has told us this sickness is a roller coster with your health.

My brother, bless his soul, has been acting firm and fighting her all the way. He has, if not given up, simply allowing her this last two days to, slowly, allowing her to act so she can realize that she is not well. According to him is simply because "she is a person and she must be allowed to make her own mistakes" and that it's exhausting to fight her and then taking care of her. Maybe he is right.

But I'm baffled and afraid.

Why is she acting this way? How can she be acting this way? Even now, I can't shake my absolute trust in her and how she act, even when she is sick because she had never acted in ways that were harmful to her. It's so alien that I can't even act and I let my brother direct this waltz and I'm only following.

I'm so afraid. She doesn't have even the ghost of a sympthom, but since one of our friends died because she had alzheimer (around 10 years older than my mom) it's terrifying watching her act so absurd and commit this erros. A professional who had attend us when we had salmonellosis acting this way.

I, I'm just lost.