Hello all just giving update , things are getting better slowly .. but i still get those "memories" still .. but not as bad as it was thats for sure .. I still see her daily but she dont want to speak to me .. she just looks down and moves on .. To bad it ended up like that , i feel lonely i always was lonely could never go out in public and meet new people because of my paranoia and social anxiety .. sucks . Just want to meet that one girl who i can cuddle talk about anything and just chill .. but im afraid now ..