Good morning =]

2am, energy drink, Concerta.. At least it's not alcohol.. I could buy some but I'll wait until my psychiatrist/psychologist thinks I'm stable enough to have 1-2 beers. I already drank whiskey on a fishing trip and I woke up feeling great. Maybe because they reassured me from being delusional that night.

Going to study but I've been making that symptom chart thing. It was cool being in the room with the psychiatrist and they actually can see what I'm talking about by looking at the chart.

I'll study a few days with music and then I'll eventually get more work done and properly without music. Also building momentum so I get back into that routine getting up out of bed, making coffee, brushing my teeth etc..

I see some sort of a future.

That first cigarette in the morning makes me feel stoned but then I get a good feeling for an hour or so. I only smoke for focus and the slight euphoria with stimulants. It's not worth it. I just subconsciously buy them without paying attention.