Was the specific trigger for your loss of touch with reality drug induced? I know in college I went temporarily completely psychotic 4 times from marijuana use, like realllly psychotic. And every now and then I feel like trying marijuana again to get that same effect because it is so interesting but also horrifying. I think I forget how horrifying it is and just remember the escape from reality aspect which can be appealing at times. But ultimately it's not worth it. I could easily end up in a hospital and that is a huge fear of mine. Pot is legal in my state but it still made me paranoid about cops coming after me and I know it's not good with mental illness so i try to avoid it these days (years).