I think about my mom all the time. The pain of losing her never goes away, and most days goes awry!!! She's been dead now for 14 years, yet I still feel like it was yesterday. I don't know why but I sometimes feel she knows. That's not crazy talk, either. To lose someone thru illness/whatnot/ or
suicide is often hard enough to take. I still miss her. I miss the way she use to smell, the way she could hug you and make you feel so special, and her gentle loving manner when she could use it. Although our "wonder" years were full of drama from her, and abuse....I still miss the "mother".
I can't stop thinking about what could have been had she not died of her own doing/ and cancer? Peace comes from within, well, I could turn myself inside out and never find it!!