i feel this fear and dread affecting my mood, and it's making me almost feel physically ill. I want to have a good day and stop dwelling on wanting to hide from my recent decisions, but this anxiety won't let me. it makes breathing hard, and makes me feel the /need/ to cry. my stomach is filled with knots of sickening regret and dread, and feels full, like i may throw up-and with all this stress, i might? i can't bear to think about looking my teachers in the eye again, i want to hide my face and never have to be seen again. the anxiety of alll of this makes me want to literally run away or drop out from school,that's how bad this is. of course, i will neither run away nor drop out,as i see those are both dumb and would not help me. i'm just stupidly afraid, i said too much. I can't. i wish i never said anything and things were the way they used to be before i f*cked things up.