Hey, Azul.

I don't know exacly what you did, but remember the link I posted on the other thread? It lists some BPD traits under the AvPD. I don't think you should worry that much about being 100% sure of what is X and what isn't, even though I too wonder if getting a right diagnosis (whatever that means) would help me with my insights towards myself, for example, or with explaining to the few who are close to me how I'm feeling and the mechanics behind my acts.

That said, I do the same. To be honest, I don't feel like I'm really trying to pursue a friendship as I don't see myself putting that much effort into it, but sometimes I'm extra nice to other people, specially if they are nice too and we're sharing the same space, for example. It happens that they naturally want to get closer and look for a consistency, so I withdraw. I wonder if maybe a part of me wants to be liked and a part of me screams "TOO CLOSE! GET OFF!".

I agrre with AboutToCrash. If you care, maybe there's a way to mend that and retake from where you stopped.