hi Mewtwojunior

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. It was bad of this girl to hurt you. that way. But do not feel disgusted with yourself. There is no reason for that you loved someone, which is always a good thing. I just hope and pray you will soon find someone who will love you back. Perhaps you would like to consider getting good medication and therapy to feel better. Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from the pain. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis