I agree with all the other posters that it wasn't your fault that your ex-T pulled away. I know it's hard not having the answers as to why she did what she did when she did.

And I also get scared of others saying that I'm sick or not coping well. That's part of what freaked me out so much when my p-doc a couple weeks ago wanted me to go to a day program/intensive outpatient for a month (that and all the abandonment/rejection issues regarding her, my T, and marriage counselor). Because that meant she thought I needed a higher level of care, and it was no longer that I was just having a bad week or a bad month.

Please hang in there. You're worthy of love and caring.