hi Fijiisland

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. Perhaps you should consider asking the Dr. to strengthen or change the medication so you can get more help. Are you in therapy? That can give you the skills to deal with depression and anxiety.
Perhaps having as little contact as possible with your parents would be best. as they are only bringing you down.

I am sorry that your kids are not treating you properly. I was wondering whether you would consider family therapy to improve your relationship with them.
There is Nami the organization for the mentally ill and you can Google, and contact them to find out what services they have in your area. Very often they do have peer to peer support groups that would give you the opportunity of making new friends and fellow sufferers make the best ones. as we are all in the one boat.
Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from depression. Setting and achieving small goals will give you confidence that things are coming under control. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis