I had a very traumatic religious experience mainly because of lack of communication. That's it the failure of people that was more healed than I to keep me informed. Today, I will have none of that from an religious church. It is very easy for me to forgive, I have bigger fish to fry rather than having this real big vendetta against a church. Given all of the variables to easy to see how this could have happened. It got worst outside of the church in neighborhoods where I lived in 2013, when they took that saying 'being your brother's keeper' the wrong way. Sometimes people's concern and protection is really meant as hate. There were words thrown my way not nice words in the church joins and kid like behavior. No body got psychically contacted, although one time it was close.

I say, trust the Lord lean not to your own understanding and a direct path is what we pray for. Forgive, move on. If necessary bring this part of you into therapy to discuss. I don't think a T can make your religious decisions, but the man thing is personal forgiveness. In the Bible showing you how none of us are perfect but also removing yourself from a toxic situation, church included. It is ashamed especially for those who grew up with religion and hold those ones to higher standards. I can understand how that would have you shaken but get yourself back out there, there are plenty of churches doing the right thing!