Hello everyone. I was just wondering if anyone else deals with these things. I was thinking to myself all these things that I think sometimes and I decided to quickly jot them down. Sorry, it's not very organized or well-written at all... It was quick.
Always feel like there are cameras in houses that are watching me or recording me. Always feel like there is someone in the house watching or listening to me, hiding behind a door, in a corner, etc. Think people are watching me through windows or cracks in the blinds or curtains. Feel like they're planning to break in and
I'll stand/sit quiet for a long time listening for any clues if I hear anything. I'll listen closely by the door. Prevents me from moving or doing much. Have to sit/stand perfectly still and listen very carefully, have to breathe very slowly and quietly (makes it hard to breathe and my chest gets tight), can't do homework because it's too noisy turning pages and writing, walk VERY slowly and carefully, can't brush my hair, run water, or anything. Think of situations that could happen and what I could do. Make up possible situations that could be happening, a whole plot. I just become hyperaware of everything around me and my heart starts racing a lot, and I cry sometimes because I get so scared. Sometimes I値l message someone saying how scared I am and that I feel like someone might break in
, so I tell them that I love them and stuff, just in case I do die.
Always feel like there are cameras or voice recorders in the car that are watching/listening to me.
Always feel like the cameras in my phone and computer are being hacked by someone and they secretly watch me all the time. Feel like people can see my texts, emails, and other things on my phone/computer (people I know and people I don't know).
Often times will tape paper over the camera of my computer or phone so no one can see me, but I'm still scared that they can hear me. Sometimes in the bathroom I'll open a drawer and put my phone in it so no one can see or hear me.
Always feel like people can hear what I'm thinking, so I start thinking something but then in my head (without actually "verbally" thinking it, decide to change what I'm thinking so they can't hear what I was actually going to think. I'll purposely think certain things in case they can hear my thoughts.
Always wonder if their are certain people (parents, doctors, random people) who can read thoughts, or read thoughts of specific people (their children, etc). And like it's a known thing amongst them all but they all hide it from the ones who don't know it yet. Or after you reach a certain age you can hear thoughts or whatever and everyone who is of the age knows it but hides it.
Also always scared that their are paranormal things (ghosts, demons, etc) around the house or place I'm at (especially at night) and they can hear what I'm thinking, and will do something if I think a certain thing or something. And if I watch anything that has to do with anything paranormal.
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