Lady,

I think your feelings are similar to mine......I am finally living my dreams.....but they have come to me....I was open to them when they came, but I didn't make them come true. I have found that what I do is for myself & what I get out of something....not for the acknowledgement I get from it.....I have to admit that it is still nice to have some of the things I do be acknowledged, but I don't do things for the acknowledgement....I do it for me.

I have to admit that my ambition to have a career & my college degree was for me & I needed to feel that I had accomplished things not for how anyone saw me, but for my own personal challenges.....I have always lived my life that way.....maybe it was because I was a selfish only child.......but I was the only one that could make myself happy...& I did things because I enjoyed doing them.....I didn't want things because of what I thought others thought of it.....but mostly for my own self.

I still have wants.....but I find that things come to me & I don't have to push it. When the time is right, then I get the things I want....& my life is turning out even better than I could have ever wanted.....even though it isn't the same path it started out being, the path I have ended up on is much better than what it started out to be. I am accomplishing more different things & am enjoying everything that is being put into my life......without forcing anything....& things are working out that I never could have even imagined even 3 months ago. (as some of my posts have been saying).

It is wonderful when people come to the truths in their lives like this....I know for me, this thinking has been the turning point in my life.....hope the same thing works out for you.
Debbie