I don't know you or your history. But if you have a history including being sexually abused and/or if you self-injure, please reconsider being involved in a BDSM relationship. It can be very dangerous emotionally, and is (for some people) a way to recreate, re-exerience, and re-traumatize themselves. It can be (for some people) a form of self-injury.

Maybe consider studying something else....like something to get you into college instead?

emmy