I was telling T about a woman I work with that swings from being like a child to an angry elf in no time.
I then looked at T and said, I know what you're going to say, just like my mum.
Then I retold get an incident where the woman came up to me, planted herself in a childish way in front of me, whined about Being called to phone administration, but administration was constantly engaged. With this she posted, I replied 'well just go up there then. It's only upstairs. She then huff ed, appeared angry at me and stormed off.
I told T I'm not frightened by her, normally I can get on with parts of her, then it hit me again and I repeated, oh, just like my mum.
T said you say your not afraid of her, but you seem bothered by her being angry with you?
I said, oh, good one. I need to think about that some more.
As I woke thus mornibg I realised how the dynamics between me and my mother were being triggered here. How I felt I was being destroyed by my mother's internal pyschotic swings. It or else why would I obsess over thus woman's temperaments? She died bother me. I am hyperviglant to her moods. If I want being triggered I'd not really notice or think about them for longer than a shoulder shrug.
She certainly us touching that child part in me that had no control over her mother's 'maddness'.
Hopefully now I'm a bit more aware of what's going on, I can be more prepared and more able to stand with myself when this colleague repeats this behavior. Which she will