I think the feeling of it not being bad enough is part of the PTSD. I felt that way although my story made seasoned therapist flinch. Part of me could acknowledge that others thought it was bad but I still felt like I must be faking it cause I wasn't falling apart. Somehow after I while I understood that it was ok to act normal and still be traumatized. You were violated it happened and you didn't get a choice...no matter what your missing nod might say it was not your fault, it was not your choice and it was a big deal.

It took a long while I had chronic PTSD, was very dissociative it did get better and when I had severe pain that required physical violations( surgery and spinal injections and a lot of people needing to touch me for valid reason the PTSD did return but I was better able to handle it.