I do not think I will ever be released from it. The empty feeling, the frustration and the anguish. The rage and the shock...as well as the empty screams and the non-existent dreams. The feeling of never belonging not because of being shunned or shut out, but because of shutting myself out...knowing that all along I never wanted to be a part of this planet or world and that I don't want to settle for it or anything else. I envy the stars in the sky and their distance from this wretched place...how they shine brightly and seem situated so well within space. Sometimes I wish I could go there, of course without the silliness of a rickety rocket or even relying on anyone else for help.
Sometimes...