Oh, yes. I used to do that when I was younger. Most definitely. I 'indulged in the chaos'. Even told myself it was a spiritual experience. Maybe it was. But then too much real life slammed in on me...losing all my aunts and uncles, then my parents, beloved pets, a much-wanted pregnancy, my precious sister getting cancer, recovering, and getting cancer again...just too much stuff and too many losses. 'Fun' hypomania somehow turned into hellish, torturous dysphoric hypomania. Delusions tortured me. 'Indulging' lost its luster. I would give almost anything to just feel peaceful. So nooo...don't 'indulge' anymore.