hi CyborgGirl001

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad. But perhaps if you got the Dr. to strengthen the medication for you. it would help. And also if you got a good therapist to help you with the feelings of anger and frustration things would be much better for you. There were times when I felt that depression would never improve. but it always did as please God it will for you. also. Just try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones to take the focus away from feeling bad.
Trying to think of the good things in your life would help you to feel better.

If you had a consuming passion something that really attracted you such as a charitable cause, or something that fired you up in earlier times, it would give meaning and fulfillment to your life. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis