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Originally Posted by newtus
i feel the same way.
i wish i could drop this mask but thanks to my my mom she believes i can just stop it. i act normal i try but its hard and then when its too hard THIS comes through. its tiring and a blow to the brain.
exactly. #schizophreniaproblems
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That's just it. I want to just drop the mask because **** I'm tired, so damn tired but I still have this expectation in my head of being "normal" even though lolNOPElol I can't pull off normal, I just thought that I could for a long time.
I think not having a safe place or safe people to drop the mask around actually can make things worse, just a theory because if you're trying to hold everything in all the time you're like a pressure cooker. I know that's true of me... It's like when I think I can't be real about what I'm going through I just get really quiet and don't say anything but it's like my brain and all the stuff in it just leaks out the more I try to just be quiet...