I hate calling a doctor- all doctors. I feel like what you said, a big baby. When I'm really sick, I don't call until it gets really bad, but then when the appointment comes around, I'm feeling better and the symptoms are fading off, the samething happens with the pdoc. One time I started cycling bad, so I called, then it stopped, then I get the look- the "what are you doing here wasting my time then you big baby" look. It's embarrassing. I'm afraid I'll end up dead because I'm scared of looking like a hypochondriac. I just wait for my 3 months appointment and stay away from my GP. I already told my pdoc about my dissociative issues and I got a blank stare and a "so, I'm just the pill pusher" attitude. It's all enough to just quit.