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Old Sep 29, 2015, 11:20 AM
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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster View Post
That's just it. I want to just drop the mask because **** I'm tired, so damn tired but I still have this expectation in my head of being "normal" even though lolNOPElol I can't pull off normal, I just thought that I could for a long time.

I think not having a safe place or safe people to drop the mask around actually can make things worse, just a theory because if you're trying to hold everything in all the time you're like a pressure cooker. I know that's true of me... It's like when I think I can't be real about what I'm going through I just get really quiet and don't say anything but it's like my brain and all the stuff in it just leaks out the more I try to just be quiet...

thats true.
people need a safe place or person to be themselves.
i cant keep acting normal or something will go wrong. im trying to pull it together you know? and just be normal but its falling apart slowly. until it just collapses. when i have pressures to act normal i get anxiety and fear. if i dont expel how i feel its gonna turn out so bad very soon. so i try to say on how i feel ON HERE. its the only place i have. here and to the members of Schizophrenia and Psychosis board on PC
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