X, you are truly a wonderful person that has a lot to give to this world. Being you is crucial, and a fifty year old or a twenty year old all have one thing in common, a brain. Obviously you use yours quite well. Just because someone uses a spyglass to look at the minutest of detail in your life, they aren't seeing the electron-microscope searching out their meager existence. So what if you have a flaw, we all do that is why we are all here in one shape or form. Please show me one person that doesn't have some kind of inner turmoil and that their life is absolutely perfect and I sell you a five mile long bridge that I own. You are a very special person and we all care about you and your well being and I am sure that you care about us too. Stay in touch and keep on trucking.