Its so hard for my mind to feel like it actually gets rest recently. We have a baby on the way *our first* and we also might be making a move soon. The move hinges on my dad getting some construction work done on a apartment but because of his work schedule it keeps getting moved back and the last thing we want is a move late in the pregnancy. We just have a lot on us at the moment and I'm taking all my meds but I just feel mentally and emotionally overloaded trying to plan and strategize and my mind wont stop racing. I dont know if ive triggered a manic phase or what but there is nothing fun about this and I'm getting stressed from feeling I'm not accomplishing what I should that emotionally I just feel adrift like "whats the use?"
I'm in EMS and I work 2.5 and 3.5 days at a time and am away from home during that time. My wife is having a rough pregnancy with the nausea and lack of energy so I feel like everything is on me. I'm just feeling burnt out and ovewhelmed...sorry if this comes across as a bad rant but I just am at the end of my rope mentally and emotionally.