I honestly don't really care about whether or not it's a violation. I could also have decided not to let my T introduce me to this other person. It was me who agreed and it'll be me who will never do it again though. It's just that I only found out after meeting this person that it was also a client. I had really really hoped it wouldn't be.
But anyway... it was more about how to deal with those feelings now. I don't want to shut up really. I don't want to make my T feel guilty for what happened either. She's not to blame for how the other client behaves of course. So maybe I should trust that I can talk about it, without her taking it personally or without it feeling as if I'm just saying bad things about this other client.
It's so difficult. Apparently this other client didn't talk about what happened. My T told me how glad this person was with my help. At the same time I feel used and very sad about how things went. Difficult...
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