Hi,

This sounds pretty familiar to my story. I did well in High School, just because my parents really pushed me. But as soon as it was up to me, college was a bust. By October of my first semester, I'd dropped out and lost a full scholarship. It was the same cycle of excitement, disinterest, boredom, then avoidance. When I later went back to get an Associate's degree, I think I did as well as I did then because it was extremely difficult, and I was working full time. I was too busy.

Now, I am changing careers and have the opportunity to spend time at home not working to study for various certifications. What do you think I'm doing right now instead of studying? I find that I'll be studying practice tests online, and I get about 5 questions done before I'm off doing something else random.

I'm the luckiest woman on earth getting to change my career with my fiance's support .. and I've wasted so many hours already. Some days I hate myself for thinking about how many hours I've wasted and what I could have accomplished. Instead I'm sitting here stressed out because the floor needs vacuuming and somehow I've managed to eat an entire container of cookies in one day.

It's maddening!