i still need to reflect on the idea of holding grudges but...

so far, from what ive learned, no not exactly, i am not holding any grudges... ive held a very long grudge against many people, but especially my parents, not for one, or two but several several reasons... and people used to tell me things about this, trying to help me become more self aware of my situation, and why i still held the grudges...

now i am working on getting over it... which now brings up the idea of forgiveness.... i have to find a way to balance how i learn from their mistakes, as well as my own.... to be able to help defend myself without the need to react to them in volatile manner....