Yeah I've put it down to anxiety but I do that for pretty much everything, suffer for months/years then find out it was "real" and get so sad that no one would help me because they think it's just in my head.

The fact that I am coughing up black and vomiting deep red/black makes me wonder.

My pdoc does not think the physical illness is anxiety but I know to some degree it is.

I know there is more than bipolar going on at the moment. I know I am not in an episode. i know the anxiety is what is driving me nuts now. But if it's not this it is that....

feel constantly mentally ill.

My support network are all saying its to be expected with all of the major triggers lately but I thpught I was stronger than this.