Do you think maybe you do it because you are numb and just need to feel something? I wish that I had some answers for you. It did help me to look at some lists of reasons why people hurt themselves and think about which ones felt like "me." I think that my main reason is communication when I get pushed beyond the ability to use better means, or to demonstrate, usually to other people, but also sometimes to myself, that I hurt. Nobody can see the pain inside, but they can see the physical wounds.

Back when I just made little scratches on my wrists that didn't even bleed I worried that I was just doing it for attention, but figured that that must not be it since I never told anybody about it or showed it to them. I think that I might have been testing to see if anybody would notice.

Cryingchild, I do so wish that I knew how to help you feel better. Remember that we are here and we will listen to you and we do understand and we do care.

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-Wendy

<font color=green>Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that, you, too, can become great. -Mark Twain</font color=green>