So, I’m new to this site, and was hoping to get feedback on a question.

Trying not to be too specific and to be trigger conscious: I have been working with a therapist for a while now. The first time I began working with her, I was having suicidal thoughts, which scared me, but I was never able to disclose that info to her, and ended up kinda falling out of therapy, not getting the help I needed (no surprise). I then began seeing her again a year later (currently still am) for help with grief/loss, and my self-injury problems that had developed. Over the last couple months, I was improving in my mood, and the self-harm was decreasing. We scheduled my next appointment out 3 weeks.

This week a negative life event occurred, and it felt like the positive attitude, and progress I had been developing cracked wide open, and everything I was struggling with was still there, under the surface. I am having general ideation again (after a year and a half or so), and am mentally and physically exhausted everyday.

I know I need to tell someone this time, but I'm not sure I should wait until my next appointment. There are university campus counselors that I can talk to, and any appointments with them are covered by my tuition… but I guess I’m scared to talk with them. Is it weird to talk with a campus counselor when I am already working with a therapist? Does anyone have any experience with campus counseling services for a situation like this? My irrational fear is that disclosing this with someone university-related will result in my getting kicked out of classes or something to that effect…