Thanks guys. unguy I've been on the Disability Support Pension for years - but it's under the poverty line in Australia. So I'm in the red all the time.

I had a shower today which is good as I haven't had a shower for some days - it's a real sign of depression for me - not showering. But I'm still so devastated with depression. I've run out of food as I can't get to the supermarket - another sign of depression - being paralysed. I feel so lonely. I'm very independent but at times like this I'd just love to have someone to take me to the supermarket or help me with something - anything. I have a headful of crap - old resentments going around and around and all the terror - of things that have been done to me and my fear of all the horrific things that could happen to me - or my head says WILL happen.