Before I start writing my story, I always notice that I don't reply to comments quick enough on this forum, and I apologize for that.

Back to my story.
I notice that it's not exactly a condition, because it's more like a protective mechanism I have. I have a lot of trust issues, which causes me to spit out white lies, and sometimes really big lies.

For example, I never let anyone know the real me, the me I was til now. The angry and emotionally distraught child I was til now. I fear that if they found out my identity, I will be riducled and bullied just like how I was in elememtary up til high school. But now I am constantly worrying that someone will find out about my lies, making the cycle repeat itself again.

Yet for some reason, my lies keep on getting bigger and bigger. Making me pray that they will just forget about me, and not notice that I existed for them. I really want to stop...because I know this will just cause me even more pain... I just want everyone to forget about me...