divine and popuri: Thanks for the insight, I like the theory that relationships should be easy early on. It makes sense, and this is something new that I learned that I did not know about relationships. You shouldn't have to force a connection. But I always feel like I am the exception to rules like this because I'm impossibly anxious/can't be myself around people/can't connect. Social things are usually a struggle with me, at least relationships beyond surface level. Or at least I judge myself that way. I'm hoping that I will be able to easily with the right person. Maybe it's the rare person that I am actually comfortable with because I can think of certain crushes or friends in the past that I could open up to more or be myself around. Maybe I should just trust and have faith in myself and keep this theory in mind instead of saying it's true for everyone but me.