Dear T

I'll see you this afternoon. There were only 5 days between sessions this time, because I wanted to go back to seeing you on ''my'' day.
I've no idea what to talk to you about. It was an easy week? I haven't done much and I haven't felt much. It's all just the same old thing. I'm unmotivated, I don't want to do anything, I believe everything is hopeless. And then the thing I'm afraid to tell you
I kind of want to quit therapy. To just give up. I know that won't help me at all. Without therapy it can only get worse. But I'm tired.
And I hate my self so much. I hate my body. It's so so ugly and fat. And I hate my face. I ****ing hate life!