This is my mode. It's easy because I am an introvert so I do enjoy doing things by myself. I can take care of the house (kind of). I like to read and learn. I like to shop on my own since it's faster; I don't have to worry about what anyone else wants to do and I don't have to wait for anyone.

Most importantly, I don't cry when I do things myself. Yet I will start crying just talking to the checker at the grocery store!

But I am lonely! And there are times I have to talk to people. I have to talk to my children's teachers, doctors and if they had friends, I'd have to talk to friends parents. Is it my fault they have no friends? One of my sons has autism. He's 20. My youngest son might have High Functioning Autism. He's 15. He has a psychotic disorder, nos. This is what brought me to Psych Central.

Obviously, I'm in need of some support. I haven't seen my therapist for a few months now. I should get back. My only friend is my sister, oh, and my husband. I take 60 mg of cymbalta daily. My woman's group is starting up again which meets twice a month. That could be helpful if I could only stop crying long enough to make a friend. It's so embarrassing: it's not full on crying, just watery eyes and runny nose. I have to look away. It's impossible to make a friend. Who would want me?

What else can I do??? I'm so sad, lonely and feel trapped.