I can understand what you mean about missing the highs. BP I with full on mania can be fun(? dont know what to call it), in some way I guess, but it can also be dangerous int hose manic episodes and then the depressive episodes. Getting off of your meds is a "typical" BP behavior and what usually happens is they are considered to come "spiraling down" each time it happens. Meds and their side effects suck, and trust me I COMPLETELY understand the weight gain one. In my opinion you should talk to your Dr before you change anything related to your medication. And as I said before, this is something a lot of people with BP do. My grandmother had BP I and I watched her go in and out of hospitals bc she was off her meds for 14 years until she passed away. Both my parents are psychologists, 2 grandparents are, and 1 grandparent is psychiatrist and they have all said that getting off meds is "typical" for people with BP, and highly not recommended. My psychiatrist thinks I'm BP II but I can't have the diagnosis for insurance reasons. I wish you the bet in whatever decision you make, and even if you do decide to stop taking the meds please talk to your doctor as coming off medication can sometimes be dangerous. Best of luck