I hold a grudge against my mother for the things she subjected me to as a child and for the way she chooses to live her life. She is in her mid fifties and has accomplished nothing in her life and seems to have no drive to do so at all. I see her as a loser and I am embarrassed that she is my mother. I try to be as unlike her as possible. If I'm being honest I find her disgusting. Just being honest here. I should probably talk about this with my therapist.