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Old Jul 31, 2007, 02:38 PM
amuseable amuseable is offline
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I find it absolutely amazing that my T has not dumped me yet. I have been with him for three years now and I know I am his most challenging patient because sometimes he has said so. There is noone on this earth ... never has been in my many years ... who makes me feel the way he can at times. I HATE it when we don't connect. I LOVE it when we do and his eyes are the sweetest eyes I have ever known. He is very strict about boundaries with me because of my history. I had an incestuous relationship with my father in early adulthood and a sexual relationship with a previous therapist some years past and I have MAJOR issues about my body being okay. So it really has felt like rejection when he won't even touch my hand let alone hug me. WE worked something out though. If I really need a hug I tell him and he will write out on a post-it note "I am hugging you now." And/or let me cuddle his big toy Eeyore in his lap. He is only a few years older than I am and he has occasionally hurt my feelings and he is not at all perfect but I love him so much. He is perfectly my T. We go to the same church. Now and then I run into his wife and I'm tempted to tell her how much her husband means to me but gee I think she might not take kindly to anyone else loving her hubby that much. I still think he should adopt me into his family. (sigh)