Here in September, it gets below 0C/32F and now it's sunny and like 15-20 degrees. In the morning it was -8C but blue sky and the moon on the other side. It's usually sunny here though.

I made a long rhyme paragraph freestyle and I realize that I don't need like 200mg of methylphenidate just normal dose which I didn't want to try. It doesn't get me high just hyper focused. Not worth it. I need it as prescribed and it would be unfortunate if that trust was lost. I'm in dept of 10 Concertas which means that I have to wait 5 days without. I took one this morning. The change is so dramatic but it sucks because when I'm on it, I don't think about the crash and then during the crash, I'm convinced that I'll stay that way forever. That's why I don't care to ask my psychiatrist to make it last longer because there's no crash at that time and I think I'm fine.

I have never been so unmotivated in my life two days ago.

When I get income, my mom wants me to buy my own internet router because I keep using up the internet as well as my sister. I'm thinking of just getting a good smart phone that I won't drop all the time and a data plan which is probably better and less expensive than a router.

@AD, no worries just kidding xp I'm not a sociopath either and I'm proud to be human. Only when methylphenidate blunts my emotions.

So to what ever the hell we all have in this life and what will happen, we will click our glasses and say cheers!