I have no emotion anymore.

I feel the same indifference towards everything / everyone. The doctor told me I cannot get into a psychiatric program covered by the government for several more months. I've been waiting almost a year to get help. I've just gotten worse and worse. I feel no affection towards my husband. I love him, but I just don't feel anything anymore. It must be hard for him. I'm worried he's going to leave me.

I have a lot of pressure to do well in school. It's kind of hard to get 90s when I couldn't care less about anything. I'm starting to give up hope that things will get better. the light at the end of the tunnel is growing dimmer.

Am I doomed to a life of neverending misery?