I feel this covers a variety of areas of where I can post so I placed here to cover all.

I think I'm falling down the rabbit hole and rather quickly. I've never considered myself an alcoholic but I found myself buying a bottle and making a drink and hiding the bottle from my spouse. I have a low tolerance.

I also feel myself craving to SI. Sad to say I gave in. I do regret it yet not enough to care.

I feel my wife may leave me yet it's unwarranted do to her not even knowing. I honest to a fault yet I tend to omit thing when I feel they will leave. If she leaves that's it I've nothing left. I've no family that cares. No friends that aren't mutual and through her. No where to go. I literally have nothing. I don't know why to do or y I post. Maybe to have someone tell me it will be all right and it gets better?