[TW for suicide ideation, self-harm, physical abuse, emotional abuse and psychiatric abuse]...

I know it seems like I'm overusing the word abusive, but please believe me on this one. The hospital got my dosages wrong, then when they finally got my antidepressants right they gave me an antihistamine which interacts severely with my antidepressants every single night before bed, resulting in a very sick me. I was not allowed to refuse to take it, otherwise I'd get scolded and threatened with extra time in Psych Hell. I also had a very manipulative and creepy social worker who believed that ADHD wasn't real, and repeatedly requested me to do strange things like smile for him or laugh at his jokes, otherwise I'd 'be in for an extra week'. He was genuine about these threats, and when I attempted to report this behavior to the ward's doctor she slammed the door in my face.