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During our last session I basically went blind the whole time....

Sometimes I have to close my eyes, can't look at him cause the feeling is too intense. %#@&amp;#!. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

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pinksoil, it really interests me that both of the statements above were in your post. You say sometimes when you are with him you have to close your eyes because your connection is so intense. Last time, you didn't close your eyes but yet you went blind! Same effect--results in your not being able to see T and a lessening of the intensity. So maybe your going blind in T's office is just your body telling you things are too intense. Or maybe it is a somatic way of fighting the intensity, the connectedness? That's probably all wrong, but I found the discussion of both closing your eyes and going blind in therapy to be eerily similar.

Good luck today. ((((hugs))))