i have struggled with this before and still do at times. it is very confusing and can make things difficult.

i have never found anything to help pull me out of it or any other type of dissociation though. my body/head seem to react before i even realize it most times.

i can remember years ago, i was on a medication which made it 100 times worse for me to the point i was questioning if i really existed and thought the only way to figure that out was to end my life or try to....needless to say, that really scared me and i went off the medication before i followed through with it. it was different than my 'usual' feelings of wanting to end my life..but was very bizarre and nothing i'd ever care to relive.