I'm so sorry you are going through this.

I was in a loveless marriage for years, and like you I beat myself up wondering what I did wrong.

Sometimes you know in your heart that this isn't going to last, but afraid of making that real step to move on. I did try over and over, and listened to the "things will get better" spiel, but they didn't. But that doesn't make either of us failures. It simply means it wasn't meant to be.

So my advice to you is to listen to your instincts.

Not your love for her or what you had, but what your heart says.

What does it say?

We all risk loneliness when we have to move on, but it's good to realize that sometimes things simply don't work out. Sometimes it's not anyone's fault. It just is.

Admitting mistakes and changing them are two completely different things. Words are nothing without action.

We all have a hand in whether a relationship lasts or not. We all also have boundaries, and you know in your heart when enough is enough.

You know in your heart what you want, and I know how hard it is to make that decision. And give yourself a break when you give in to her. But stick to yourself and your heart about what you want.

I wish you the best.