that makes sense. i was used to certain types of dissociation where i kind of knew more about after it lessened. i still kind of do....but lately it has been worse. i know it's a coping mechanism..not that knowing it helps. it just leaves me very confused and trying to makes sense of it all when it might not be able to happen. all i know is....i'm kind of there during it...nothing external really happens..it's all internal and chaotic with a lot of things flying around inside my head..and then it lessens and kind of slowly takes it all with it..and at some point, the things i knew (even though i've known them before a few times) just get taken away again...memories i mean..not just random meaningless things..and it takes the feelings associated with it away too.