Thank you boogiesmash for this thread it's really good. I am 48 and have been sober for 16 years and worked with psychiatrists and psychologists for years but I still bear the main, fundamental grudges. AA helped a lot as the 12 steps have you work through your resentments rigorously. But more damage has been done to me, not of my own making in recent years and it keeps the big hitter resentments going around and around in my head. I have Bipolar II and CPTSD with Psychotic features and I am on the disability pension, totally isolated so I have way too much time to ruminate on all this. I'm in that space where I'm too sick to get out and socialise or work, but being alone means I just get sicker and sicker and can't socialise or work. Vicious circle.It's awful.