I am so sick of the med situation. I feel like a chemistry experiment whenever I go to the pdoc. Years of "we can try this or that" or "we need to adjust this or that". Without even knowing whether it is going to work or what the side effects will be. I guess we do it for periods of stability and the elusive desire to functional in some spectrum of 'normal'. Things haven't been right for a while now. I fully believe the pdoc putting me on Wellbutrin just royally screwed me up. It isn't the only issue but in putting me on it, cranking up the dose and pulling me off set something off in my brain. I am very angry. Part of me wants to stop all meds all together. The only drugs I want to take are ones that numb me out, I don't want to feel anything.