<font color="#000088">I completely understand how you feel, I look at the Mental Hospital whenever I ever go by it, just wondering how long it will be before I end up back in there again. I'm right about your age, I just turned 34 at the beginning of July, and the first time I was in that hospital, I was 20 years old. I spent my 21st birthday in that place. I've been there 3 times since then. But I've been hospitalized in regular hospital Psych Wards more times than I can even remember. So I can see what you mean about those little windows. It's like a constant reminder of your past, and always wondering when it's going to suck you in again!
I'm so sorry you're in so much pain, and hurting inside so bad that you need to cut so much. I can definately relate to that feeling. I just try to fight it the best I can, because I really don't want to go back to the other side of those windows. Maybe if you really focus on how much you don't want to go back there, it might help you keep from cutting as much, just a thought. And I'll keep you in my thoughts as well, always!
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